ONE - Spell your name without vowels: JJ LRw
TWO - Are you single?: Yup!
THREE – What's your favorite number?: 13! I like 6's, too~
FOUR - What color do you wear most?: Black and Red, for some reason... Those are my mom's favorite colors, actually!
FIVE - Least favorite color?: Ah, I don't really like pink, but it's really pretty in nature! Like cherry blossom trees... flower petals... kitten noses...
SIX - Favorite candy?: I love peppermint, and... I like most everything gummy!
SEVEN - What do you smoke?: Nothing.
EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now?: Moderately, yes! I think parts could improve, but I also think that I can make them improve in the near future!
NINE - Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity?: Yes! My friend Hannah told me that I looked like the love-child of Taylor Swift and Bruno Mars... Granted, I was wearing something of Swift style-ish, and I added a fedora.
TEN - What is your favorite class in school?: I really like English, to be honest~
ELEVEN - Do you shop at Hollister/DC/Bluenotes?: I've never heard of Bluenotes, but... no, I've never really shopped at any of those places.
TWELVE - How do you make money?: I honestly don't. My mom gives me money to buy groceries and such sometimes, and she tells me to keep the change, so... I guess, I've accumulated money from that!
THIRTEEN - Who is your best friend(s)?: I have a lot of online friends and friends in real life, but... I suppose, if I had to say, Lady, Hannah, Jenny, and James are my best friends in real life... Online, my best friends would have to be Tobi, Zeru, and Shadi!
FOURTEEN - Where do you go to school?: An early college~ So, like, a half highschool, half college situation.. It's pretty awesome and full of nerds!
FIFTEEN - Are you outgoing?: Not really.
SIXTEEN - One word to describe you?: "Deceiving"
SEVENTEEN - Favorite pair of shoes?: I love all of my converse, haha! Green, Black, and Maroon high-tops as well as my Red standards~
EIGHTEEN - Do you own big sunglasses?: I actually don't own any of the sunglasses I use; they're either my sisters's or my mom's...
NINETEEN - Where do you wish you were right now?: I wish I were in a rave right now! That'd be amazing~ Specifically, I'd like to be at an anime convention rave! Or, I'd like to be in a quiet place of Japan... Both sound great! I'd like to be spending my energy in a rave right now, though.. Preferably, I'd be dressed as some sort of anime character. Possibly cross-playing.
TWENTY - What should you be doing right now?: I REALLY NEED TO GET MY WORK DONE BY THE END OF THE WEEK. MY TEACHER IS TEXTING ME TO DO IT, AND I CAN'T HELP IT.
TWENTY ONE - Do you have a crush on anyone right now?: Of course! Oddly, I'm finding that an unrequited love is really relaxing, though.. They know I have feelings for them, but we're still super affectionate (hand holding, cuddling, flirting, etc.) despite the fact they're taken. It's really calming... I should keep unrequited relationships from now on, haha! I suppose, is it a G rated friends with benefits? I like it.
Honestly, what's on your mind right now?: I'm worrying that I'm a bit screwed up... Is it normal to enjoy an unrequited love? What will I do when I move away? Will I just separate myself from everyone? It'd be nice to 'die' or something like that... I really want people to miss me. I want them to cry and fall to the ground, begging me to return or keep in touch. It's weird, but I want to see that people really, really miss me. I want them to look at all the amazing things I've done and how nice I am... I also wish I was someone else. I'm not sure who I want to be, but I've always wanted to be like Matt (my OC, if you didn't know). I love the idea of being a guy instead of a girl, but I don't really hate being female.. I just think I'd definitely be a man if the option was given and simple. I want to have an Allen (Matt's lover) that I can cherish, and I want to have a crazy backstory to hold me back (like Matt). I hate that life is so standard here... I don't care for relationships as much as someone should, and I don't have any past traumas (that I'm certain about) or anything. I hate the idea of having a sexual relationship. I might be asexual... I mean, I can be turned on and such, but it's only ever by yaoi, haha! People aren't sexually pleasing to me, otherwise. I don't want children.. I don't want to be weighed down by a partner. I don't want anything or anyone, but I need so much, I think.. I'm really confused. I want to leave everyone. I want to shatter them. I want to shatter. I'd like to break apart until I'm empty inside, convincing everyone of how screwed up I am, and then I want to pick myself back up to be someone entirely different. I don't know anymore. Who am I, and Who Do I Want to Be? I'm a little confused, and I'm honestly happy to be confused. At the same time, it stresses me out, and I feel sick. I wish I could feel pain, like normal people... I wish I could break something. I want to break a bone... get a sprain... stitches... Why do I feel so much mental pain instead? Is it all in my head? I don't understand. Is this okay? What makes something okay? Am I okay?
Honestly, what are you doing right now?: Avoiding my work, stressing out, listening to fast-paced music, writing out a meme..?
Honestly, have you done something bad today?: Ha, I avoided my work. Oh, and I forgot to do my homework for English III for once! My teacher was so disappointed, and I felt so bad.. I tried to do it real quick before she checked it, but I wasn't fast enough TT_TT
Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?: Last person I called and actually had a lengthy talk with? My kohai, Lady~ Last person I texted? My mom, a nice guy I met at my second anime con, and Alexis.
Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?: I can't really think of anyone specifically..? Maybe, my sister, Elizabeth? I really wish I was where she was. She seems to be having a lot of fun.. Oh, but I'll be there soon, too!
Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?: Er, that's a hard one to answer... there are a lot of things. I hate bad sounds, as a person with misophonia. Um... I hate being talked down to, ignored, talked over, glared at, etc... Ah, I guess it's easy to say I hate being disrespected. I like to be treated equally, not as a someone who is inferior due to age, gender, or lack of experience and independence. Also, I get annoyed when people speak ignorantly or in a superior manner on something they can't comprehend. Still, I try to reason with ignorance before judging too harshly..
Honestly, do you bite your nails?: Nope! I used to scratch my head endlessly as a nervous quirk, though...
Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?: Ah, I'd like to see my very precious kohai. Other than them and other than super awesome celebrities I look up to, there's no one I really want to see right now.
Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?: I don't think I have too many big secrets, but when I do, I keep them for a very long time, only telling very close friends. On the other hand, I hold countless big secrets for all of my friends~ I like to hold them... I'd never let them go, even to strangers who don't know the secret-holder!
Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?: Yes, I do. Thing is, I like seeing them happy; I just don't like being around them.
Can you blow a bubble?: Yes.
Can you dance?: Heh, not well. Still, I love to~
Can you do a cart wheel?: HAHAHA.
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: Nope OTL
Can you whistle?: Never have been able to...
Can you wiggle your ear?: Not at all.
Can you wiggle your nose?: Yes, indeed!
Can you roll your tongue?: HA.
Can you make a clover with your tongue?: What the hay? That sounds horrifying!
What do you do when you're mad?: I cry. I usually draw angry things, too... Then, I get over it.
What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?: Ah, I threatened my sister with a knife and told her to leave the house, or I would kill her. I also threw all of her stuff out of the room we shared. She left the house for quite a while, but... we get along great, now~ It wasn't the best method, admittedly, but it was effective. When I was little, my other sister and I would scratch and hurt each other.. Usually, though, I hurt myself when I'm mad. I hit my head with my fists or scratch at my arms or something.
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: Yes.
Ever really cried your heart out?: Yes.
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Yes.
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: Yes.
Ever cried over the same sex?: Yes.
Do you cry when you get an injury?: No, I'm fascinated! I've recently discovered that I'm likely a masochist...
Do certain songs make you cry?: AHAHA, VOCALOID SONGS THANK YOU. I've only ever really had three Vocaloid songs, I think, make me cry.. They're the only ones that can! They can be so heartbreaking.
Do certain movies make you cry?: Yes. Oh, but I tend to cry at the less heartbreaking things.. It's weird! Like, when the cancer patient dies, I don't cry. When it's their funeral, I don't die. When they find out it's cancer, I cry. When they try to have their last moments together, I cry.
Ever cried from reading a book?: I think so, but I don't really remember.. I used to be very emotionally invested in the Warriors series.
Are you usually a happy person?: I don't know.
When are you the happiest?: I think I'm happiest when watching anime, dancing at a rave, listening to fantastic music, EXPLAINING MY STORIES TO PEOPLE, talking about something I really love, cuddling with my cat, and when I hang out with Lady-kohai.
Do you believe in yourself?: Pffft- what's not to believe in?
Do you wish you were happier?: Who doesn't? There's always room to improve~
Is being happy overrated?: How so?
Can music make you happy?: VERY MUCH SO.
How many times have you had your heart broken?: Once...Twice... Thrice...? That sounds about right. I think, I was heartbroken after my first real crush was denied. Then, I was heartbroken when I broke ties off with what used to be great friends. Lastly... I think certain family members have broken my heart, over and over, but I'll just count it as one.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: I wouldn't be alive, if I didn't. It's funny how that works... I'd die for Jenny, her baby Ella, the best brother- James, or my most adorable kohai- Lady or... anyone who has ever hurt me, actually. I would die for those who taught me pain, and I'd die for the aforementioned who brought me the cure.
Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'I love you'?: Of course! Deviants, best friends, people who saw me romantically, and oddly acquaintances who I barely talk to...?
Do you actually hate anyone?: Yes. I hate the tyrant who ruined her life. I occasionally hate the one that rules over mine.
Have you ever been on a hit list?: Eh?! I'm not important enough!
Are you a mean bully?: Not really.. Am I?
Do you hate George Bush?: What does that have to do with anything? You know what I hate? POLITICS.
SELF ESTEEM SECTION:
Is your self-esteem extremely low?: I consider myself pretty narcissistic. In my eyes, I am the closest thing to perfection~ Sadly, I have a habit of seeing myself from the perspective of those around me, and that's when things go south...
Do you wish you could be someone else?: I already mentioned that I would trade my life for Matt's. I would do it without hesitation. Sure, I'm awesome, but MATT. I wouldn't ever trade with someone in the real world, though.
LOOK AT ME:
What is your current hair color?: Dusty brown.
What is your eye color?: Gray-Blue. Although, some people think it's green sometimes.
What is your skin tone?: I'm not crazy pale, but I'm most definitely white.
Current piercings?: Ear piercings! Just the regular.
Have any tattoos?: Nope.
Straight hair or curly?: Curly, actually! When I had long hair, it would form big waves and ringlets at the bottom. Now that it's short, it flips up, so.. Well, I guess 'flippy and fluffy' is a better representation now!
What shirt are you wearing?: A red, button-up, collared shirt. It has long sleeves, rolled up to my elbows.
Necklace(s)?: A red ribbon, cat bell and a half-a-heart piece necklace (my sister owns the other half).
Shoes?: Red converse.
HAVE YOU EVER:
Hugged someone?: Yes.
Been on the phone until the sun came up?: Yes.
Laughed so hard you peed in your pants?: Not really.
Laughed so hard you cried?: Definitely!
Got in a fight with someone?: Never a physical one.. Unless you count me and my sister when we were young?
Person you talked to in person?: (If web chats count..?) Auz.
Person you talked to online?: Zeru.
Person you hugged?: Lady.
Do you like surveys?: Yes, I do!
Do you get along with your parents?: Occasionally.
Do you have mental breakdowns?: Often..?
Current mood: Content!
Current music: Junjou Romantica and Sekai-Ichi Hatsukoi OSTs.
Current hair style: Ha, I'm actually not doing anything with it right now.. Odd to think about it taking it I'm obsessed with having nice hair. It's just fluffy right now. My bangs are pushed to my right.
Current crush: ;3 Now, I doubt she'd want me telling~ Afterall, what we have is rather unique, and spilling it would likely be to spoil it.
Current thing I ought to be doing: HOMEWORK. Specifically, I need to finish Module 6 of English IV and start Module 7...
Current windows open: dA messages, dA meme, my current hw assignment, my English IV grades, and YouTube.
WOWZA THIS WAS TIME CONSUMING GUESS WHO ISN'T GETTING THEIR HOMEWORK DONE.
~Dead Neko Cho-san
Listening to: Sekaiichi Hatsukoi OST
Reading: Loveless Volume 3
Watching: NGE, Sailor Moon Crystal, Amaburi, etc.
Playing: Animal Crossing: New Leaf
Eating: White Grapes